I was attracted emotionally to other girls in junior high school. In my late teens, I started feeling physically attracted to girls. I never gay-identified, as I didn't like the feelings and wanted them to go away. I was frustrated, had no idea where the attraction was coming from, and wanted nothing to do with it.

       In my early 30s, I had a powerful encounter with Jesus and received him as my Savior. I thought that as a Christian, I would not experience same-sex attraction anymore. But although I wasn’t acting on it at all, it did not go away. I’m a member of the LPGA and was so  focused on my career that attractions faded to the background.

       About ten years after becoming a Christian, while in a business meeting, I looked across the room and made eye contact with a woman. I was immediately attracted to her, and I could see in her eyes that she was extremely attracted to me, too. I didn’t want to pursue anything with her, so I resolved to keep my distance.

       A couple of months later in another business meeting, she sat down next to me. She asked how I was doing, and I ended up unloading all of my work-related frustrations and struggles on her. She offered to help me because she’d had similar experiences, so I agreed. We struck up a friendship, which became a relationship, and I entered into the world of lesbian sexuality. She was practically my dream girl, but all along, I felt unsettled about it and very internally conflicted.

       She wasn’t a Christian, and I was. One day as we sat in my car talking, I mentioned a biblical concept that applied to our topic of conversation. I said, "There's this Scripture in the Bible that says…." I barely finished when she turned to me and said, "Shut up! I'm so tired of hearing about Jesus. If you mention him one more time, I'm out of this car and you'll never see me again."

       Suddenly, I knew I was at a crossroads of choosing my faith or her. In that moment, I chose my faith.

       It was the hardest decision I had ever made, and I knew I needed serious help to work through it. I needed more than just reading Scripture; I needed a counselor, someone who could help me unravel the deep emotions from a faith-based perspective. I ended up paying to join a Christian ministry program where I gained understanding about where my same-sex feelings had come from. I also attended a conference and read a couple of books on the topic of transforming unwanted same-sex attraction. All of these things were healing for me.

       Today, I’m no longer attracted to women, and I have attraction toward men. I’m currently single, enjoy my freedom and am happy with being released from the intense conflict in my soul over my sexuality.