Starting from a very young age, I experienced a deep desire to be a boy, and as I grew older I was only attracted to females. I looked at boys as my brothers and best friends. Women were what I wanted to cherish, protect and invest my emotions and feelings into; whereas, boys were not a romantic interest whatsoever. In high school, I allowed myself to explore my sexuality and my attraction to women grew.
Eventually, I found myself in a relationship with a woman, whom I wanted to marry. But, my girlfriend broke up with me, and I was left alone. I was so depressed, realizing that I had nothing and that I didn’t want the life that I had been living for years. I wanted to die and couldn’t see a way out for myself.
In my pain, I started searching for God. I didn’t know what else to do, so I asked for His help because I didn’t want to live a lesbian life. I began to go to church and read loads and loads of books on sexuality. I found myself listening to hundreds of different podcasts. While I did that, over the course of about four months, my attraction to women completely disappeared.
Fast forward to now, two and a half years later, and a lot has changed for me as a woman. I love the way that I look; I love my hair and really enjoy getting dressed up and fancy. I love the fact that my body can birth children. And I have found that I enjoy being a woman all around and can now express that healthfully. I’ve even found myself dating men and noticing different things that I desire in my future husband. I’m looking forward to marrying a man and starting a family with him. God led me on a journey that completely changed my life through many different means, and my life has never been better.