I was transgender and exclusively attracted to women until my 30's. I have no memories of being content in a female body, and by the age of 9 I’d made plans to change my name to David and get a sex change operation, but I never went through with it.
In the midst of that I found a compassionate community of people, met Jesus, and through an 11-year journey of transformation, Jesus set me free. The change I experienced wasn’t from a single event, but rather, a gradual process that resulted from the following:
A woman I knew stepped in to be my mother, invested in me and welcomed me into the world of women. A pastor of mine never stopped reaching out to me, despite how tough things were for me at times. Women surrounded me and affirmed me as a woman among them. Several male friends affirmed me as a female and treated me as distinct from, yet cherished by, men.
After all this, I was asexual for a period of time—not attracted to women, but not yet to men. I didn’t care, because I was so happy to be free from the pain I’d experienced my whole life. As I continued to pursue healing for my heart, attractions to men began to surface—which was thrilling yet awkward for me because I was in my mid-thirties! As I continued to experience transformation, a greater desire for the opposite sex was awakened. Since then, my attractions to men have steadily increased. I’ve discovered what “my type” is and hope to marry someday.
Today, I am wholly content in a female body with no desires to be a man. I love my femininity and thoroughly enjoy being a woman. I am completely free from the desire for a sex change, the sexual fetish for urinals, and all sexual addictions. I see now that all of those desires were attempts to console my broken heart. My sexual brokenness was simply a mirror reflecting the deep wounds in my soul that needed healing. Each day as I live with more freedom, I grow more and more sexual in my femininity. I’m a sporty gal and will probably never be extremely girly, but I’m comfortable with who I am and content as a female in a female body.
My full story is available at www.lindaseiler.com.