GWEN GIBSON
“Seminars helped put words and understanding to what I was experiencing. I no longer experience same-sex desires and have walked over 25 years in my choice.”
Most of my life, including my childhood, I knew my attractions to women were not like those of my peers. I can’t remember a time in my early life that wasn’t filled with that thought. It wasn’t until much later, after college, that I began to seriously consider coming out to friends and family. I confronted my own feelings and ventured into a same-sex relationship. I thought I’d be fulfilled, happy or at least relieved but felt little more than momentary satisfaction. The emotional struggles, heavy drinking, depression and other relational disconnects in my life remained. Honestly, I was surprised. I thought a gay life was supposed to be my answer.
I had grown up in a Christian home and in the church. While I stopped going to church after college, I never lost the sense of loving God. It was the one relationship that felt more real to me than any other. I began an honest pursuit of God. It led me to books from others who had similar stories to mine, seminars that helped put words and understanding to what I was experiencing, and supportive prayer and spiritual counseling that helped me along the way. I was grateful for Christian pastors who were accepting and gracious for both my straight and lesbian friends, who were genuinely supportive of my choice to live as a heterosexually-oriented woman.
The change was steady, but not instant. I now no longer experience same-sex desires and have walked over 25 years in my choice. Much of my life has changed, including my emotional wellbeing and the lack of same-sex attraction. I’m living an abundant life as a single woman and have never considered living as I did before. I’ve been really happy with the choice I've made, even on the difficult days.
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