GABRIEL PAGAN
“Today I live knowing that what once brought me the most shame is completely taken away by a God who didn’t avoid my pain or questions.”
I used to be very depressed and constantly paranoid of what people thought about me. I explored sexuality in high school after being exposed to sexual activity and pornography as a kid. Acting out through masturbation and webcams became an obsessive habit to which I lost all control. It got to the point to where I was acting out what I was seeing on screens in public.
This brought me to my lowest point and I wanted to kill myself. I was unaware that people were praying for me and because they did I felt motivated to change my life. Someone reached out to me on social media and shared Jesus with me. I accepted Jesus Christ in my driveway and the Holy Spirit fell on me like fire which brought me through a series of encounters. I went through a prayer ministry and saw Jesus holding me the first time I was touched inappropriately, and I told the Lord that I would never sleep with another man if I had His presence like that forever.
Twelve years later and I’m free from being bound to same-sex attractions. I’m happy and living a wild life of adventure following Jesus Christ. Today, I live knowing that what once brought me the most shame is completely taken away by a God who didn’t avoid my pain or questions. I serve as a pastor at my local church and lead people through inner healing prayer sessions. My greatest joy is seeing Jesus crush unbelief by stepping into people’s pain and watching them encounter the God that kept me from ending my own life. I was addicted and now I’m free. I was depressed and now I’m full of joy. I was full of hate and now I’m moved by love. I’ve been married to my beautiful wife since 2019, and we have three wonderful little boys together. I love my new life.
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